Moving On....
            So here I am at the encouragement of my sweet husband! We have made a huge life changing decision. We are moving into a RV for 1-2 years, to save money and get out of debt more quickly. I am ready for the challenge kinda.... Doing something new after 9 years and 6 children later would cause the most adventuress person to blink, just a little. Oh yes and did I fail to mention that we also in the process of clearing our land? By our self? That's right a chain saw, man and woman power! Being real pioneers!  I guess trying to save money means a little extra hard work for us all! Children included! All joking aside it will be such a blessing for us and our children. WE both know it will be very hard work but the Lord will use this time like He always does to sanctify us all. As we have been packing the children and me a like have learnt to let go of many things. I see material possessions are losing their hold on our family. The children have been really great about getting rid of their stuff they thought they could not do without, me on the other hand is a different story. I make jokes about my mom being a organized hoarder, her home is filled with all kinds of really neat stuff and it has its place but it is A LOT of stuff; as I was going through my things I found stuff I had not touched in 9 years! It was hard to get rid of it. I thought I might need this sometime, yet I had not used it in 9 years! I realized then I have the inherited hoarding gene so to speak, very humbling..... So now my thought is if I haven't touched it in 2 years time to let it go and if I need it one day the Lord will make sure I have it. It is the same way about clothes if I don't have a child who can wear it in 2 -3 years then out it goes. I can't see keeping clothes for 7 years when someone else can use them now. I can understand the struggle though you think but I might need these then and then what? Like I said before the Lord will provide it! "Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? Matthew 6:26 NASB It seems to be our lack of trust in the Lord that keeps us from giving freely. 

                We do have somethings that are going to storage because it is things we will need when our 2 years are up. Christmas this year was humbling I honestly struggled with hating the season and wanting it to be over as quickly as possible. I was just really in the hole about it I see this time as a time for the wealthy (we couldn't go out and buy gifts or make much)..... I know we celebrate the birth of our Lord on that day... But it is truly hard to focus on that, when you are going from house  to house getting presents. I know if I were to say look family next year please don't give us anything we want to focus on the Lord at that time and the presents distract us, I can see it now, our families would think we are totally depraving our children. Moving in the RV has already made some of our family question our sanity.... I know in 2 years they will see we made the right choice and that our family will be stronger and more honoring to the Lord when all this is said and done. Well until next time! May the Lord bless all who are walking in His ways and may those who do not know Him come to know and adore Him!!! Here are some pictures of our progress over the last 6 weeks!! 

In Him, 
The Williams Army!!

                            Looking into our land! Before any clearing!

Our Driveway before being cleared behind Tina and Abby!!!

                                                    Behind our Lily the land before!

                                             After:

                                       First bridge made!

                                             Same View where Lily was!
                                         

     

 Hey.... Best looking man in the world working hard ;0)

                         Spot the Vanna!

         Even the littles are getting in on clearing!

                  Our Driveway! Papa and E man!

                View from driveway!

     

Watching...

To me there is nothing more joyful or heart lifting than watching a little one. Everything that they do is so sweet and funny. Well almost everything, getting a hold of AD ointment and rubbing it all over herself is not too funny. Well that is kinda funny too! I remember the days when I didn't think it was too funny, those were stressful times. But as the Lord has changed my heart little by little some of those moments have become precious to me. Toddlers are quick if you turn your back just for a second they can climb a set of drawers and have dry noodles all in the floor! That one not funny.... But finding the 2 year old with the one year old behind the couch with lotion all over their heads and body that to me is funny! Now that I see they are just exploring the world around them it changes my attitude about it. I can't help but to laugh when they try so hard to help and make bigger messes :0) My heart melts when my little girl climbs behind me in the computer chair and gets her feet tangled in my hair for the second time today.... Its beautiful does it hurt sure! But she just wants to be close to me and to me that is worth all the pain and mess..... Time goes by so fast and one day my children will not be here to stand over my shoulder being nosy or  needing a hug. The Lord is so faithful to His children and He will show us the truth about all things. The truth is don't compare yourself to no one. I used to compare my self with a woman and then my eyes were opened to many things. The mark of a woman to look up to NOT compare but to be encouraged by, is one whose children are respectful, honoring to God and are kind. If their children are unruly, foolish, or disobedient pray for that woman. Remember this one day children will cease being children and they will become adults. Salvation is only from the Lord Jesus but we are called to teach them His ways also. Our bodies will wear out the baking cooking we will do will disappear in 30mins but what we instill in our children and our time with them will last for generations. May we all keep our eyes on the Lord.... and May He  give us wisdom and understanding ....  
With great Love,
Jessie

Lost and the Sovereignty of God.....

This past Sunday I experienced, for the first time, a miscarriage. My baby was about 7 weeks. I would have to say it was very hard and still is. But the peace that the Lord has given me can not be ignored. He has been so very gracious to me. When the sorrow becomes heavy there He is to comfort me. My heart is lifted and I even smile. I can't help but to think about our little one in the arms of the Lord. The joy and happiness that is our child's. How can I remain sad. But I go back and forth like this. I fall and grieve and then the Lord smiles on me and lifts my soul to rejoice. I know that it is not by chance but a choice that my Father has made and I rest in His goodness and His will. I will cry and I will hurt but I am not without GREAT hope. All of my other children where very upset that we lost the baby. Everyone was so... excited and my oldest sweet daughter had been making a stuff animal for the new little one. I didn't know that she was until I said to her hey why don't you finish your stuff animal and she replied, "I can't I was making that for the baby". My heart just broke into pieces. I told her make it anyway and we will put it in a shadow box with the baby's name. We chose the name Jesse/Jessie because we didn't know if the baby was a boy or girl.

~Trouble understanding~

I am a firm believer in that the enemy will sneak in at any broken wall. He goes straight to the weak ones, the smallest. When things happen I feel as if I could have prevented them from happening. I am the gatekeeper of my home and still he found a place to enter. I am not mad at God at all. It was my fault I was not  more diligent. I think back and say what was I doing at that time? Was I on the computer? Was I playing on facebook? Was my attention directed else where instead of at my post? The answer is YES it was. I can not get around that. I drop my sword and was off playing somewhere else. The enemy got in, he attacked. But I can say with the most confidence that the LORD who is great and mighty will NOT let him destroy us. This will be used as a reminder of why it is important to stand guard at all times with our swords by our sides while we do the work of rebuilding and protecting.When my children are in bed, is the time that I should do anything that has to do with this computer or anything else that takes my full attention. Some may not agree but when there is a hole in the wall and your attention is not where it should be, believe me the enemy will slide in and the damage will be done. But the LORD is gracious and HE will use it for our good. But some lessons I would rather just know then to experience them. Technology is good but if it takes us away from our gates, dulls our senses, takes our attention from our home and children then it is NO good. And trying to justify its importance, is just digging the hole deeper. If it causes you to sin pluck it out. When I neglect my precious and VERY important duties as a woman, wife, and mother then I am sinning and greatly. I am writing this blog while EVERYONE in my household is sleeping. But if I can not stay off of my facebook when my children are awake then it will be plucked out. Nothing is more important than, my children's safety and well being, also not to mention my ministering to my wonderful Husband. May you all learn that gate keeping is the most important thing the LORD has given to us as women and by His merciful grace may we do that with joy and ALL diligence! Let us stand at our places and give the enemy no ground with God's strength He will help us! Greater is He who is in us then He who is in the world!


Our enemies said, “They will not know or see until we come among them, kill them and put a stop to the work.”When the Jews who lived near them came and told us ten times, “They will come up against us from every place where you may turn,” then I stationed men in the lowest parts of the space behind the wall, the exposed places, and I stationed the people in families with their swords, spears and bows.When I saw their fear, I rose and spoke to the nobles, the officials and the rest of the people: “Do not be afraid of them; remember the Lord who is great and awesome, and fight for your brothers, your sons, your daughters, your wives and your houses.”  Nehemiah 4: 11-14

Love Covers a Multitude of sins...

I am always amazed at the Grace of God, His long suffering, and mercy. He has taught me that love covers a multitude of sins, I have had to do this today. With His grace He has shown me that I am not far from this also and that He everyday, covers my MANY MANY sins. I am unworthy of this and of Him. He helps me even when I don't deserve it. Today I was taught this truth. I pray I never forget or take for granted this great kindness of His. What beautiful love what kindness, how can I not be more in love and how can I say no to all He commands.... Oh to obey more and more these wonderful truths.... May sin become more and more offensive to me by God's grace and His spirit and may He become more and more precious to me.